The other skaters in the club used to call me [I]BabaKatia[/I], which meant “little grandmother.” I didn’t particularly like this nickname, but they gave it to me because I liked to needlepoint. Also, probably, because I was very serious, very meticulous. Whenever we traveled anywhere, I always carried a bag with me that my grandmother had packed that was full of everything a skater might need if something went wrong with a costume: safety pins, ribbons, rubber bands, scissors, thread. Also little sweet cookies and candies and snacks. My grandmother would tell me, “If you don’t want to eat it, Sergei will have it.” She loved Sergei, and used to make him pastries filled with meat or cottage cheese, called [I]pirochkis[/I].
At the beginning of our second year together, in September, Sergei missed a morning practice, and Zaharov lost his patience. Naturally, I was there. I never missed anything. If you told me to go to the moon, I’d have gone there, too. But Zaharov told me to go home and not come back for the rest of the day. He said, “You don’t have a future with Sergei, and I’m not going to coach him anymore. You, Katia, will keep skating as a singles skater, and we’ll look for another partner for you.”
I didn’t think it was fair. I was proud to be skating with Sergei. He made me feel safe. He seemed like an older brother to me, and I knew he didn’t miss any more practices than the other boys. From what I remember, he didn’t even miss more than Zaharov. Sergei was just a normal teenager who wasn’t totally committed yet to skating, wasn’t sure if her was going to keep skating or not. But Zaharov pushed him hard, and overreacted to Sergei’s mistakes.
Zaharov called our parents and asked them to come to a meeting at the club the next day. This, of course, was unusual, so my parents decided to meet that afternoon with Sergei’s parents to discuss the situation, before they saw Zaharov. It was the first time my parents went to Sergei’s house. My father said that he thought Sergei was a good skater, that his body was nice, maybe not strong, but fine for only sixteen. But he thought he had to be more serious about training. They all wanted Sergei to realize he had done something wrong by missing too many practices. So my parents waited at his house, and when Sergei got home, he was shocked to see them sitting there. The first words out of his mouth were “Where’s Katia?” because I’d stayed home from the evening training session. He still didn’t realize how upset Zaharov was at him.
My parents told Sergei to call me at home. He phoned, and he and I decided to meet the next day at the subway before practice and talk things out. That was the first time we’d ever met off the ice together, and I was very upset, crying, because I knew how angry Zaharov was. I knew that Zaharov wouldn’t coach Sergei any longer, and the idea of changing partners scared me. I’m not sure why, but I always believed Sergei was the only one who could skate with me. It had nothing to do with having romantic feelings toward him. I thought that he was a very attractive man, of course, but since I was so little, and he was so much older, I never thought he’d have special feelings for me. But I’d always imagined it would be fun to be around him.
Not that anyone asked my opinion. It’s only in America that they worry about how the skaters are feeling. For us, it was always, “Go ahead and skate. It’s too bad for you if you don’t like it.”
When he met with our parents later that morning, Zaharov spoke very bluntly. He said I could not skate with Sergei, because Sergei wasn’t very good as a partner. Sergei’s mother said, “Fine, we’ll leave CSKA and go to another sports club, and Sergei will become and ice dancer.” She always thought pairs skating was the hardest discipline because of all the lifting the man had to do. Also, in ice dancing there was no jumping. But my parents, who knew my feelings, told her I was not going to skate with anyone else. They thought the decision of whether we stayed together or |